Lonely and Broke(n)

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 Even after having so many friends i don't know why i always feel lonely. I badly want a girlfriend but i dont find anyone attractive in my class. 

Not to brag but i act upon my priorities on this. Making money is the first priority. What if you have a gf but not the money. That insecurity eats me. I know good(so called)girls don't care about money but burh i want to provide. I dont want to think about money when i go out with her. I want to be able to pay for all the shit. Idk if this makes sense to you but who cares

should i write here about my day? im confused. i usually open this when i feel like to let out. not to share about my day.

nvm forget it

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