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I'm getting headache everyday from past few days. Idk why is that, maybe I've got a number on eyes or its just average sinus/migraine. Headache is my hereditary liability from my father's ancestors. Idk how to cope.  On top my stomach started to hurt this evening. I think im having a very bad time with my health and these college mfs are putting so much pressure.  I just want to go back to my mom. Man I miss her. I got things to do but I barely execute them

 19th Nov 2023, India lost the worldcup to Australia again. That yellow jersey country now has 6 world cups can you believe that? But the point anyway is not about who won, the point, for obvious obvious reasons, is what I am doing as I watch this world cup series. I was watching the match with PG friends, everyone was excited in the beginning but soon all the room went silent and sad. The opposite team was playing well and we were going loose the WC again. Right today as I was watching this finals I am a first year engineering student at NIE mysore, who took admission through comedk after even taking a drop year for jee and miserably failing at it.  In the last world cup i.e 2019, I remember I was watching the quarter finals in hospital bed. I was hospitalized due to dengue fever. I also remember that on the same hospital bed I unboxed my dad's new phone, discovered indian hip hop and I also remember... Im not sure if I can still reveal sensitive information of my life here. ...

Its been more than 2 months since college started and there were rarely few days when I liked it. I don't like this city, this place, this PG, this food, this life. Nothing. Not even friends tbh. I have no idea how I am going to spend 4 years here. This sucks. I wish I could go back to Hubli. I wish i could go back to HOME... It not always bad here. For example this college is vast and has very less crowd. So I often take walks alone near library building. There is just so much solitude in it. That part has to be my favorite. And beside that building and cricket ground nobody even takes a glance. Nobody would get to know if some guys smoked weed or made out there. I go there alone and play chess or check my diary. Peace is there for sure no doubt. There are many falls-type of places here so whenever you are bored you can go to KRS back waters, brindavan garden, balmuri falls or yedmuri falls etc. Even the roads are good and the route has many serene views. Nice scenery of step irri...